So, I currently live with my boyfriend Scott (AKA: Blue) and his friends Haley, James and Andrew they are also his bandmates in a band called Arsenic Addiction. It will be 2 years in July since I moved in and yes its been an experience but lately I have felt better about things around here and I am not so quick to say no when it comes to hanging out downstairs..I now enjoy hanging out.
Blue and I have been together 3 years on September 4th of this year and I have to say that it has been an amazzing two years. He is the best boyfriend that I have ever had, he treats me really well and takes very good care of me! It's weird cause in the beginning I was not used to being treated so well that I closed my heart and kept to myself even though he tried and tried to show me that it was okay to open up I just felt weird and unusually happy. My other boyfriends were used to treating ladies like they were tools instead of girlfriends, so when this man came along and showed me what it was like to relax and have fun and that it was okay to open up and to love and be loved in return it was unexpected.
One day Blue was going to his parents house in Springville and invited me to go with him to meet his family..I was shocked as his family is mormon and in the past when I dated a man that was mormon his mama and his family (mostly his mama) hated me even though I am not a bad girl and treated her son like gold..they hated me and made me feel like I was satan! Example one of the guys I dated I thought was nice I met him at Broulims he was a cashier like me and we were great friends but then we decided to date (NEVER DATE A GUY FROM WORK!!!! ESPECIALLY ONE THAT WAS YOUR FRIEND FIRST CAUSE IT FUCKS EVERYTHING UP.) So, one day he took me home to meet his parents I dressed nice nothing revealing and I was really polite and nice but she hated me and made me feel like crap but now I realize that I was dressed fine it was just the fact that I was not mormon and I de-virginized her son. Well long story short after 5 months of dating he moved in with me as his parents were against him dating me when one day his sister called and had him come over to his parents house and his parents offered him a car if he dumped me..Hmm well guess what he chose-the damn car. Needless to say I felt cheap and really hurt that he chose a car over me...Anyhoo when Blue and I got to his parents house his parents made me feel so welcome and then when we left his sister and mother gave me a big hug...it made me almost cry as they reminded me of my late grandpa Layton (as he never judged me nor my mom for not going to church and being a part of the mormon church he accepted us for who we were and loved us for being us)
It was that day that I decided to open my heart and let him in, also because my mother really liked him and in all of my years of dating I kidd you not she did not like ANY of my boyfriends she would always incourage me to break up with them (which I wish I would have done it cause all of my ex's treated me like horseshit) But with Blue she always tells me that she loves him and I also noticed that she put our picture that we had Haley take in her wallet (thats another good flag as she NEVER put a picture of me and my ex's in her wallet or anywhere that people could see, cause she hated them! I always had professional pictures done of me and my ex's and gave them to her and she never kept them) The pictures I had Haley take of Blue and I she put a few up in the living room, her room and in her wallet..talk about AMAZZZZING!
I know my mother and his mother would love that cause his mother treates me like family and my mother loves Blue and considers him her son-in-law already but like I said that is a good thing :)
the other night my good friend that was dear to my heart left this world for a better place. When I found out yesturday I realized now more than ever that Blue is my everything and I told him yesturday that I wanted to marry him and have his children cause I want to grow old with him and I want to be there for every single time in his life..I want to be his shoulder to lean on, his shelter when he needs someone to hold on to, his rock when he needs someone to talk to and his star when he needs to be given a little push to succeed in his dreams. I want to be there to share his laugher, anger, saddness and most of all his happiness!
The next person whom I love with all of my being is my mother Shannon..she is my bestfriend, hero, mentor and best of all my mother! She is the best mom a lady could ever ask for and I am glad that she is all mine...she sometimes has doubts if she has raised me right and I am here to tell you that she did a great job at raising me, she was a single mother and she had a rough time with it at times as there were times that the debts were high and she had to bust her ass just to make ends meet so that she could put food on the table..but she never let it shine through her around me, she always made me feel loved and even though she was broke she would do what she could to make me feel loved. As the years have gone by I will remember all the good times that we had together, like the trip to Las Vegas for my 16th birthday that was a lot of fun got to see Lance Burton (to bad Criss Angel wasn't around cause I would have loved to see that sexy man and drool lol) but Lance was amazzing too, I also enjoyed the Terminant of Kings that was fun..gosh my mom and I were so confused when they brought the food to use, cause you had to eat with your hands because thats how they would eat in mideavel times..so anyhow we were brought a bowl of tomato soup, a chicken and a piece of brocolli and we just stared at the bowl of soup trying to figure out how the hell we were going to eat it then we both laughed when we noticed a handle lol so basically we had a "blonde" moment! I also will treasure all of the amazzing concerts that she has taken me to I have an awesome mom at that cause I enjoy music like she does we both love the 80's hair bands Dokken, Godsmack, Motley Crue, Scorpions, Queensryche etc. Well let me tell you concerts are not cheap and because of her I've seen almost all of the bands that I love and wanted to see-She took Blue and I to see Black Label Society and Judas Priest in Concert that was an amazzing show and Blue only wanted to see BLS but he did not enjoy them as much as Priest which was weird cause he doesn't like the music that my mother and I like, I've seen Priest with her I believe that was my second time seeing them with her (funny thing is both times she took me to see Priest she bought a ticket for my "then" boyfriend steven then this last time she took Blue lol)
She took me to see the best concert ever-Godsmack and Metallica back in November of 2000 i think, Rob Zombie and Lacuna Coil, Evenesence and finally Godsmack and Motley Crue for the Cruefest I just started seeing Blue otherwise I would have brought him. Now she surprised me by buying us Tickets to see Scorpions and Queensryche in June it was an early birthday present..She spent over $200 for our tickets as she went all out on these ones we have front and center seats I am so excited.
So, my dad is another but I am not as close to him as I am to my mother cause I was raised by my mother as I lived with her and he was not around a whole lot when I was little as he had a gf at the time that hated me and only wanted my dad to father her daughter and not me and because my dad was an ass at that time he chose her instead of me so he never came and saw me until I was older. Now he is starting to come around and he is amazzing cause he is a mechanic and always fixes my car and doesn't charge me for it..I really appreciate him for that..Love you Blue, Mom and Dad with all of my heart.
Until next time :)
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